When all seems gloomy

We all face troubles.
ALWAYS.

If I would ask any of you whether your life has been a bed of roses, what would your answer be?
If you say no, obviously you are lying.

Well same goes here.
Life for me has never been the one I dreamed of.
Things has never been smooth sailing ones.

At times, I feel like giving up.
At times, I feel like running away.
At times, I question God.
At times, I want to end my life.
I always feel that my life has never been fair.
Nothing I wanted came easily.
I always ask God why are these things happening to me.
I wanted to give up in believing God cause the more I believe in Him, the worse things turned out to be.

Every time all I ever hear is to keep holding on.
"Keep holding on, God is there."
I will ask in anger where is Him when I needed Him the most?
Where is He when I'm hurting the most?
The rage would stay there.
But once these things are over, I sat down and think about it.
You see, most of the times God put me through these things is to teach me to believe Him.
Is to have faith.
Is to persevere.
And I would finally got why all those things came.
These things make us a much better person.
It had definitely made me a much more solid person.

So.
Keep holding on.
God is there.
He just wants you to learn.
He wants you to have faith in Him.
Faith.